The Vibes Are Just Off...

This week was yet again crazy. The neuron mugs that I made at the beginning of the semester are absolute trash and will in fact be thrown in the dumpster on Monday. I really should NOT have put off going to Louisville and buying white underglaze. Clearly, I need to overcome my fear of driving in Louisville because that limits my world quite a bit. Anyways, I wanted to use white underglaze on the inside and outside of my mug, but since I went to buy it the day before everything was due, the Louisville store was out. Instead, I used mackenzie white for my mugs. They look absolutely atrocious. We live and we learn I guess.

I feel like a lot of the other bowls/objects I made turned out a lot darker than usual. The glazes seemed to come out quite brown which I found odd. I don't know how I could have made it more brown because I dipped it the same and everything so I am not sure what caused that. A few other people felt the same way too, but maybe we just need to put it in different lighting or something. I also noticed that on my two jar objects, the lids are quite small. I knew this would be the case when I put them in the kiln because I ran out of time to remake them. That is definitely quite frustrating. I need to learn how to make lids asap. I can get them to look nice but then they always shrink a

nd I can't get the measurements right.

I am SUPER excited about the summer class. It will be amazing to have time to work on things on my own schedule and not feel pressured by assignments. I was already stressing about summer because I need to have a routine to function and my mental health always gets worse over break. Staying home is not good for me so having access to the studio where I feel safe is a lifesaver. I am also really looking forward to bonding with the post-baccs and the other people in the class. I used to have a lot of friends in high school but when Covid hit I isolated myself so much that even when everyone else started going back into the real world my mental health was so bad that I could not even leave the house. It wasn't until I graduated from my outpatient program at the hospital four months ago that I was even able to be in the same room as other people. I am hoping that this summer will be helpful not only in ceramics but also in my social life.